The reason that I can't reach out my hands is because I have already failed. It might be because even though I want to be nice, I'm afraid that he/she might be uncomfortable due to this. No, it is. The result of being kind to someone was an awkward and uncomfortable relationship. Today I tried to reach out my hands to her but I didn't, because I'm afraid of becoming estranged each other. It seems that I lost confidence.
These days I often think like this: Is he/she having a hard time like me? No, I'm not having a hard time anymore. But I can't help thinking the fact that I went way that I shoudn't have gone, so I bear him/her in my heart and pray for him/her. Though I resolved that I would never, never care about one's mind...I know the fact that there is no result of caring someone and the one who gets hurt is me, but I do it again and again. I think it's an innate nature.
His/her face looked tired and exhausted. I felt that online, but meeting offline, she did look tired. I'd like to embrace her. But I can't. Because I've already lost confidence.
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